The Game


"Games" can have a bad connotation, like, "this guy is playing games", meaning we're being manipulated by impure intentions, or "video games" that can be shallow forms of entertainment and tools of escapism. These are different games.

But games can also be blissful, exciting adventures along which we grow and ascend to higher realms... 

In this game called Life, most of us are in the 3rd dimension, and others are transitioning to the 4th and the 5th now. 

In the 3rd one, it seems that some of the major components revolve around Money, Body and Media. The focus of the game changes as we ascend...

There are laws, levels (or dimensions), magic ways to boost our energies, allies and evil forces along our journey. Do we start all over again if we die, or do we get to play a different game, is not fully clear to me yet. Death isn't the end, but the re-incarnation question is still blurry. 

The coolest thing about this game is how many easter eggs there are for us to ascend to higher dimensions (or upgrade, unlock new levels). They include:

  • Plant medicine
  • Breath activation
  • Molecules like DMT
  • ...and our precious pineal gland! 

Then, we have "cheat codes" written in old scriptures. If well studied and assimilated, all the answers are there for us to find liberation within our Human life. 

Now, the way to free ourselves from money, or to "complete the Money mission", for example, is not to reject money, to hate money, to play small, to be broke, to unconsciously abide by the religious imperatives and the subtle dark forces that are trying to disempower us, to suck it out of us. 

The way to free ourselves from money is to make a lot of money in ethical, positive, value-creating ways so that we can support ourselves, the ones we love, and invest in socially responsible ventures. Making money means to serve in ways that are valued. 

Imagine what this world would be like if all light-workers mastered social media virality, the energetics of money, and fully honored their body temple to radiate glowing health and divine beauty! The resulting power would allow us to fully bring our gifts and infuse the darkness with an irresistible loving light. Plus, there's nothing bad in these concepts. Thinking they're bad/evil prevents us from doing good! 

Can you see it?

If we, good-hearted people who care about the evolution of humanity, want to free ourselves, we must embrace and play the game so well that we can write new rules that serve us, ones that don't enslave us. 

And that is why I'm ready to join a mission-driven corporation again, with all the tools and lessons I've gotten over the past 3 years, coupled with my business acumen.

I've seen both sides: the light and the dark, and I'm ready to integrate both, in alignment with my Truth, my heart, and enter an era of abundance, of service, of positive influence so that ultimately I can actively participate to the freeing of the matrix. 

Our high-level principles and spiritual aspirations must be embodied and translate into concrete action that touch people where they're at. No, most people are not secluded in hippie communes, protesting in the streets or in ashrams. These are not the people who we need to talk to now in this consciousness crisis...

What matters and where mastery must be attained is to play the game with an intention that is aligned with our heart, and to play it consciously, meaning that we can observe ourselves and remain objective, and not be "addicted" to the dynamics of the game. 

I've met so many beautiful souls who suffer from the matrix because they reject all of it: they barely shower, they hate the system, they want out, etc. In doing so, the system wins over them. If you hate money, that's the very reason you should have enough to never think about it. 

It's either we play it so well we win, or we go all out of it, in an off-the-grid commune in the mountains with gardens, fresh spring water, etc.

But the in between is where the suffering happens.

That's why I studied Business, that's why I enjoyed myself in Vegas in champagne sprayed booths, that's why I was naked in hot springs at Harbin wondering about the infinite with healers and shamans, that's why I went to all corners of the multi-dimensional human experience: to grow, to appreciate it, and create from a place of comprehension and compassion. 

Ready to play? Our first mission, should we choose to accept it:

To accept all sides of us.


Humanity's Big Promotion

So talented...:

So talented...:

My friend Ben told me to read this article, and since Ben is one of the most intelligent, aligned, and courageous minds I've ever met, I was happy to read it.

As per usual, we were both sitting in the back of Seeds of Life, the raw vegan café he founded. It was early morning and we were warming the red couches where our revolutionary conversations unfold, God smiling at us for picking up the breadcrumbs. Raw, vegan, and gluten-free, of course.

The aforementioned article talks about "the future" and how the jobs landscape will completely change, as in 90% of lawyer jobs disappearing and AI's doing all that lovely paperwork for us, yeah that work allows us to pay taxes (lol). 

Of course, we're going there. But the question still holds:

'What will WE do?", anxiously ponder some American dreamer who's given up critical thinking to a bottle of numbing pills that were surprisingly so easy to get. It's okay, there's another pill to crank up your neurons, then spray some espresso on that mix and there you go, you got one excited brain and one inflamed ego.

Bah, that was too much. You needed to detox, so yeah, you came to Ubud. Good. 

Here you are, sitting on that red couch with Ben and I, sipping on some chaga tea because you knew that cocktail of chemicals and coffee wasn't serving you. You felt our frequency, his after hours of doing Ashtanga, Pranayama and having a biophotons party, and you trusted your intuition. It feels like that long warm hug we shared was the kind of energy we actually need. 

You look at me after a deep exhale, spitting the stress out of your soul. I lay my hands on the summit of your torso.

You ask me: "What do you think we'll do then? Aren't you afraid of singularity? Elon Musk said it was scary."

I smile and I tell you that "I think about the future all the time, which in itself is a funny sentence".  

I play along and tickle your mind, which I know can take it:

"Yeah, what will we do if we don't need human lawyers, doctors, soldiers and construction workers?! That's the core of our job market, right?! What will Trump campaign on this time?"

My answer is: SO MUCH MORE. Actually, we'll do what we are built to do.

You rolls your eyes at my answer, it sounds too easy. 

I laugh out loud because it's both funny and exciting, yet I can see how the question is unsettling. I place my hand on your back, and I straighten my spine, or the Source does. 

But seriously, who likes doing these jobs anyways?! Aren't you glad robots will be easing our lives so that we can actually LIVE? Were you really liking that 2-week vacation after years of exhaustion? 

I open my laptop and search "job history and meaning". Here, look at this as I point at my screen: " From the Hebrew, which means "persecuted, hated". In the Book of Job in the Old Testament he is a righteous man who is tested by God, enduring many tragedies and hardships while struggling to remain faithful."

So, do you still want a "job"? 

Dear God, there's so much potential we haven't even tapped in yet. All these old-paradigm jobs are just temporary solutions to the problems we've created by distancing ourselves from the truth:

  • We need doctors because we don't trust and understand the intelligence of our body, nor do we understand bio-chemistry and the vibrational quality of what we assimilate and interact with. It goes way beyond food, we're emotionally constipated!
  • We need lawyers and police officers because we do not respect our inherent heart qualities, we live in fear and with a scarcity mindset in which we abuse and compete with our brothers and sisters, trying to win what is lost in this very competitive process (highest irony).
  • We need teachers to mold minds, train them to be loyal employees, make them insecure and tolerant to abuse, while giving them enough hope to pursue ideals that appear to be theirs, whereas all knowledge is free for us to take once we rise in consciousness. There's no tuition to listen to your intuition... 

As for business and communication, well, it's a matter of unlocking the dormant human technologies that will allow us to build better infrastructure in a more sustainable way, but that implies a revamp of economic dynamics that are based on planned obsolescence and ferocious competition.

Simply said, office jobs, emails, writing, etc. all the "mediums" will be removed and we'll work directly in and out of the collective subconscious, with telepathic powers instead of all these transactions and blurry translations. That's my current feeling, but not sure how long it'll take within this dimension / reality. This might only happen after a big shift... 

As formulaic and mechanic work vanishes from our lives, we will finally tap into our divine capacities. "Flow" will be our natural state, not a funky phenomenon or a fun buzzword. 

Our work will now be to recover and expand on these powers, and that, my friend, is one big full-time contract...

Until it gets much easier. The transition is tough, I'll admit it because we're feeling it, but the light is bright and the tunnel keeps expanding, so we keep digging in for gold and break out of the mold...

You chuckle, so I bring it down to make it a bit more digestible: I'm shy to use the word "divine", as if it's almost blasphemous to use such a term when describing humans, insulting the great One who governs us all but this is a scar from fear-based man-made religion. Divine is not removed from us, it's actually who we are, what we're made of. 

We are the One, we are God's consciousness expressed in the physical world.

How will we recover and expand our divine powers to come back to Oneness?

I believe the logical path is to start at the physical level: We must prepare our bodies like we prepare a starship. As Ben says on his new clothing line: "The only way out is in".

Our work will be to dissolve all density in order to become powerful conduits of divine data, like wifi routers but from the one Source from which we all emanate.

Basically, we gotta turn the power back on, activate that sexy pineal gland, and walk into our light bodies. (I laugh again because I know it sounds far-fetched, whereas what's actually weird is how far off we've distanced ourselves from our original conception). 

To re-engineer the body to be such a powerful portal instead of the prison it has become, the wellness sector will only grow in importance. Self-care will become basic, not "selfish" or luxurious. Breath work and yoga will be as normal as eating breakfast and watching TV in this previous era. 

The way media will work will be very different. Claiming ownership of content will be an outdated principle since all Truth is channeled because it is simply translated from this Source to which we are all connected to. I do not own these words, hence why I gladly give them for free, hence why we don't sell "air". 

Our vision and approach towards sexuality will be wildly different as well. I believe it will be perceived as a powerful practice to experience, and taste Oneness, to raise to higher realms and raise our levels of energy. Tantra and kundalini will be demystified, Truth will take over taboos. 

We'll learn how to perform what now appears to be "miracles", sudden physical healing by removing blocked energy in the form of emotions and traumas in the body.

Our senses will sharpen to the point of surpassing what we now experience in psychedelic states, glimpses of our capacities. For example, if I meet someone, I'll know and feel where there might be an illness with a simple glance. Intuitively, I'll be called to offer my own healing energy for this density to be released, melted, accepted, loved out of her body. Actually, we don't even need to "meet" to do that... 

Some subjects we'll study (until we are fully conscious) might include Mechanics of the Mind, Artistic Channelling, Higher Guidance Counseling, Energy Field Protection and Expansion, Chakras Alignment, Pineal Gland Activation, etc. and I know it sounds super new age hippy to say haha (your pupils widened), but there's nothing weird to all of that, it's all science that has yet to be embraced by the masses. We simply get uncomfortable with what we don't fully "get", see, or can package and sell. 

I sometimes can't escape sarcasm with a touch of cynicism: Don't worry, as soon as corporations get a hold of that, then the media will make you think this is all normal. They'll sell you prana by the bottle, and we'll face another cycle.

Unless we learn and emancipate from this collective karmic imprint bringing us to be enslaved?

Has humanity gotten its lesson yet? Do we still need the pain to "get it"? Can we say "thank you" and get up? Can we be sovereign and rise to a higher dimension, supporting technologies that serve our truest potential, and activate the ones we've left dormant? Can we ignite these twelve strands of DNA and stop seeing slavery as definitions of selves? No, you're not a teacher, or a doctor! That's for your taxes, that's just ink on paper!

Are we ready to embrace our divine nature? *gulp*, you took another sip through your smile and said: "Time will tell"...

"Or we will tell time", I replied. 

Dear Men, it's time to do the work.

I've been a little quiet with you for the past few weeks, but within me, it's a beautiful storm, it's loud, without a sound. I'm coming into alignment. I'm detoxing my mind and body. 

I realize that I've posted sexualized content that might have confused some, or that might have created energetic bonds and false conceptions as to who I am and what I could be for you. This post's purpose is to clean that up.

Maybe sharing a little more about my relationship with sex will bring clarity: 

...I was 17 years old, it was my first real boyfriend. He was a good kisser. So, as we both hung out with my girlfriend, I told her to try him, to see how good of a kisser he was. It would be enjoyable, nothing more. To me, that's normal, but their confusion told me it wasn't.

Let's go back a little further when I was about 5 years old: I would make everyone undress and we played "Queens and Kings", innocent role play without clothing. Our moms came up and freaked out. Clearly, that too wasn't normal. 

More recently, I was with some beautiful people, who felt very sexually activated by my presence. "I don't know what you do, it's like you sprinkle fairy dust", yet I was fully clothed and I didn't even kiss anyone. 

I'm writing this piece sitting in a villa with two of my friends, on Naka Island somewhere lost in Thailand. Moments ago, we were talking philosophy and business all naked in a sauna. And none of it felt sexual.  How freeing, how precious, these days spent in naturist resorts or parks... Ah. It feels like the future, gifted in the now.

You'll also notice that in my book "Once Upon A Swipe", the orgy, the Playboy scene, the foursome, all of it, that my sexual presence there is lived very differently.  

In my world, everyone can be naked if they feel like it, because it makes sense, it feels good, it's physical truth, not because "naked" equals fucking. Sex is not penetration. Sex is divine electricity that births it all; babies, art, flowers, and smiles.

And that's a major, major difference. Sadly, it deeply clashes with our culture and I need to realize this and realign myself. I was posting as if I lived in Ancient Rome or in some distant future in which shame, guilt, and perversion aren't poisoning our minds. That's my mistake, I take responsibility for it.

Not that nothing should feel sexual or involve penetration, of course not. In fact, all could feel sexual/vibrant/electrified/tantric if we understood what it really is and worked to recover its sacred essence. 

In other words, sex is the physical expression of life force running through us, and a powerful force that makes this world infinitely expansive and ever blooming. Sex is beautiful, profound and spiritual when we let it be such.

I clearly don't live my sexuality in normal ways. I barely ever masturbate, I've watched porn less than 10 times in my entire life, and as I write this, I haven't had sex in months. In. Months. In the past year, I've had sex 5 times. Yet, as I'm writing this, my sexual energy is being consumed in the most exciting way to me, at this point in my life.

In fact, I now believe that the reason why people perceive me as being so sexual is that I am working to be "asexual" in its popular sense, to integrate both the masculine and feminine within me and to transcend the tension of the 3rd dimension (this could be a book in itself, a little too complex to discuss here).

You see the difference? In simple terms, I was having a party, all light and happy, thinking no one would get trashed and crash it. But some men did, and it made me uncomfortable, and sad. 

I must confront and accept what sex is, on a cultural basis. 

Passed the polarizing effects of gender, we'll experience a new kind of communion within and with the other. 

Passed the polarizing effects of gender, we'll experience a new kind of communion within and with the other. 

So Men, I need to talk to you:

To any men with whom I've created energetic bonds through the "sexual" content I've posted, please be released, be free in how you invest your energy. Whatever you see in me is just a hint as to what you are looking for in your life partner, whom you will meet when you are ready.

Having men "fall in love" with an idea of someone is not healthy nor is it sustainable. I want us to know each other's essence, not our envelope or false fantasies. I am not a naked body.

I'm sorry if I've added to the challenge you face regarding an overly sexualized culture. I really am. I can empathize with what men are going through.

But I'm also excited for male sexuality to become fully conscious, and to go back to that cleanliness that blessed our younger days. A certain innocence that wasn't stained by disempowering and addictive pornographic content.

The good news is that I've met many men (5 now) who've done that type of work, practicing celibacy for years, doing deep inner, shadow work to heal the collective masculine. It's possible, it's beautiful, but it requires commitment. 

I'm sorry that you live a world in which cumming is, often enough, a "need", and that we're made uncomfortable with power, so we give it away, to a kleenex. I wish for us to be able to walk naked side by side, with a genderless, kid-like energy. 

I'm sorry for the emotional entanglement my content might have created, for the unwanted sexual tension I might have brought into your life. I wish for our bond to be clean and I want to respect where your mind might be at.

I do not want to abuse your attention and add another distraction. To impose my nakedness in a sexualized angle is tasteless, in a way. 

I'm sorry for the misuse of my sexuality and body to have hoped to talk to your higher self. It wasn't the courageous route, it was the easy one. I was afraid there wasn't any other way to get to you, at times, that it was all you cared about. 

So why did I post these ego-fed sexy pictures before? 

 3 reasons:

  1. A few years ago, I was blogging and was barely getting any views for each post I was so proud of. Then, I posted a Burning Man entry with a picture of me topless on the playa. It got thousands of views and people started to share it, I got a taste of "virality", and it was awesome to reach so many people with such an important message. I got amazing feedback, but I knew most people had gotten to my story because of the naked picture. I thought that if I embraced human nature, being curious and sexual, then it'd open the door to inject inspiring and spiritual content. In a way, that still makes sense. But I must refine its execution and clean up my intent. My ego got twisted in the sheets and that is why I must revise my approach until my intent is selfless.
  2. It was healing for me to share my liberation journey, however confusing it was for many. I do know it's inspiring for others, and I do not intend to become closed off or hide my body, that wouldn't be "me" either, but it will be continued and shared with greater awareness and consideration of the impact it has on men, and with much higher levels of integrity, self-love and respect. 
  3. When in LA, I fell into my "wounded feminine", my insecure, needy self. I didn't feel independent and I lacked security. My sex-appeal became the quickest way to get attention and power, however misaligned it was with my true value and purpose. I started modifying pictures with FaceTune, I was using these crazy filters on Snapchat, etc. It wasn't me, both from a visual point of view and from a personality one. I was sad and misloved. The pictures (the one I took down) weren't about liberation in *that* segment of my life, it was me being imprisoned in the societal imperatives to please men. I objectified myself, I take responsibility. I let media win, I lied to my essence. I acted out of fear, not out love. In this sense, I lost my innocence with the addictive taste of power and attention, and my ego was gratified in ways that are not aligned with my truth. I will certainly celebrate my body, but out of self-love, not out of a desire to please, harvest Likes and take advantage of this need to fuck that currently afflicts too many men.

Moving forward, I wish for our bond to be clean and for my creation to align with my heart's truth. I will respect men's healing process towards conscious sexuality, I will not add to the problem. It is not a critique or an offense to men, it is the predictable outcome of cultural conditioning, just like women face other challenges...


Written at night back in Bali, days after: 

Men, you need to wake up. What you think is power is not. This orgasm that drives the rhythm of your life blurs the real power you have.

When I posted about me smiling to the idea that my IndieGoGo campaign was indeed glorified prostitution, I added how beautiful, magic and healing sex was, how powerful I could be if I was free to share this divine love with the world. 

But Dear Mother of God... I just came back from Patong in Thailand and let's just say that sex isn't sacred in most places, or in most heads, and I wish for all to remember how to see one another and to recover our true sexual powers. What "prostitution" is has nothing to do with how I used the word in this context. It was sad to see. It was like coming back to reality, and realizing my party had been crashed.

My idyllic vision of the world in which we run around naked without any unhealthy sexual tension or constant drive to fuck everything that moves can not be at this moment in time, however fast we are writing history: we still live in a world where porn drives innovation, fantasies, and desires... I know you're tired of it too, I trust you. You realize that any addiction poisons the beautiful. You are taking the steps to see how the body is meant to be free, to be loved, not to be fucked, mindlessly.

So, I have work to do and so do you. As they say, "we're in this together", and this is my prayer: 

I now create with courage and increasing awareness of what my content expresses and create.

I let my higher self guide the process and I will not kidnap your attention with my butt crack.

I trust your heart and intellect to engage with what feels aligned for all.

I clean myself from the unhealthy energetic bonds that lead to misperceptions and damaging tension. 

I am aware of my sexual power, I honor it, as I honor yours. 

I am sensitive in what I choose to share with you.

I will be a friend to you on your journey, and I will salute your courage as you too walk this path towards sexuality, recovering its sacred essence, this divine electricity, this creative force, these ongoing orgasmic micro big bangs that birth it all; God dancing through us. 

May we all be free from cultural enslavement, sovereign souls and bodies, in full command of our energy.

May we all do the work towards a fully integrated, symbiotic, genderless future in which our sexual drive creates the world we dream of, the one we're done waiting for.

Your friend,